Nathens Birthday Sep 6, 2009

Happy Birhtday Nathen

4 Years old

Devon Lost his first tooth

He is so exited

Got two bucks from the tooth fairy

fog is lifting

This last month or so has been a big fog. I roboticly get things done and wait for the phone to ring. I hate myself for not being with my dad when he needs me most. And know it wouldn't do any good any how.

Dear Val Webber my Step Mom passed away. Saturday June 13, 2009

The wait is over. Her pain is gone and now the peaces are left to be picked up. After she was lade to rest Wednesday lightness came over me. I am still mad at the unfairness of this. She was to young and had to much life to live for, to have gone so soon. But I am not sad for her. She is with God and it was like peace entered our home when she let go of her body and entered heavens gates.

So life here moves on. I aic for my dad. I get angry for silly things. Like James going on about season passes for snowboarding and what CVA will pay. I mean that's like half my budget for the school year. And the other half goes to the YMCA witch he insists on us doing also. Sure we will all go snow boarding, but the boys wont have books. Gahh. I just don't get the man.

I just miss being home. And fined it so strange that after all this time MI is still home. SO much of my heart is there. I guess that will never change.

Sick

The title parity much said it all. We been sick. Sick in spirit, then in body. Started Thursday with the boys having a light cough. peeked on Sunday at least for Nathen with a visit to the ER a 104 temp and bloody noise. 5 hours latter we get to go home with him lots of meds and poor things got pneumonia. Devon gets hit next then me and James. All weak we battle high fevers and horrid cough. Today we are all on the mend. Boys played outside in back. Still keeping them at a slower pace, but we are not cottages and doing better. Hoping on Sat we will get to go to Niki. Missing her.

Spirit wise we are growing with God and his grace. I know for thous who don't believe this is cheesy. But it is a place I draw great strength when times like these come about. That and my friends and Family. Val is still in the same state. Only now she has an infection and fever. My heart aces for my Dad every day. There is so little to do. His birthday was last Sunday. He is 55 years young. He didn't even want me to wish him happy birthday.

Every thing ells boils down to money. We are scrapping the pantry and freezer these days. Only buying fresh fruits and veggies as needed. All others are coming from my stock pile. And James thought I was nuts to do that :) But with the Roof needing fixed, the car brakes, and all us getting sick and the co pay for meds alone yickes. We are pinching the pennies tall the end of next month and that's if work picks up. Oh I pray it does.

Things are doing better. We have our health coming back and with out health insurance we would have had to pay much much more. The roof is fixed all be it on credit. it is still fixed and the car too. James job may be slow, but he has a job so I will not complain on that. Doing what we can to look on the bright side. Good friends. And lots of love it will all end well in the end.

Missing U

Taken in 2007

Autumn, Dad (Howard), Mia,
Step Mom (Val), Trevor, Nathen in my arms, Devon and me

I pray that she comes back to us. That she knows no pain at this time. I pray for my Dad to know that he is not alone and we love his so much.

We love u Val.

The last few months of fun

I figgerd with this up coming weak being so busy. Devon terning seven and James being on vacation and all I would try to catch up before I get way behind again. So here u are. Adventures in homeschooling gardening and all that good stuff.

(above) Our new slides came in

(Below) Making apple sauce


My new raised garden beds They are so awesome

Awana Derby The Army car is Nathen's

We had a great time even if we didn't win a thing

Trevor's car coming in secant

Devon's car is the brown dog on the back track

Cheese

It really was fun Nathen's car almost got a trophy. Was way faster then the thing looks

So there u have it. Oh and that middle guy terned seven today :)

The sun is out

Finlay some sun and of course to sick to really enjoy it. Church today and hopping to size up my garden to start putting in the raised beds. Or at least buy the wood for them.

Spring break is over. Tomorrow we start at the Y again and I get a new class. Science and history day at the other Coop and just moving threw tell summer hits or I just give in and give up :)

On the bright side we been seeing lots of friends and out alot even in the rain. I love the zoo in the rain. Probably why I am sick :P Kids are in good health thow. Thats a good thing I think.

I love the sun. SO happy it is back even for a short time.

And we go on

Plugging threw these last few weeks has been a chalinge. My brain is fried, my body is bruised and in pain. I am worn out and so are the boys. We are very grateful for no snowboarding class next weak. (We just found out today) A nice weekend rest will do us all some good.

After that. I do want to say it is sooo worth it. I love watching my boys fly down the hill. No fear in them just joy. It is awesome. I took the lifts today and am now wishing I had braved up to it sooner. very fun, but I still loose count as to how many times I fall down.

My friends and family have really stepped up to the plate to help out with Nathen too. It is such a great comfort knowing he has a safe place to go if mommy can't be there. It isn't anything I have done to much of in the pas. And for six or more hours at that. He has been really good to. It has honestly unproved ho he acts when I drop him off places now. Very cool.

Church is another early morning that I drag getting to, but love when I am here. The kids in class are so exited and it just brightens my hole weak. And I get to be Nathens Teacher which he loves.

My family in MI have been calling allot too. Tom is engaged. I keep looking out the window to see if pigs are flying or any thing on the news about hell freezing over. Really did thing he would be a bachelor for life. I am very happy for them. Just hopping I can meet her before the wedding in Nov. Why so fast. I have no idea.

Snow Boarding

Our first snow Boarding class was This last Saturday. Starting at 6am we ate break fest and headed out. met up with Steve and the cousins and headed to the mountains. He I am very cold in the 19 degrees temp waiting for class. Tho I have to say by the end of class I was sweating and hot. A work out I am not used to and paying for today.

This is us and the gang waiting for class. James took the day off to watch the boys and help with Nathen. Good thing seance there terned out to be no child care as I was told there would be. Once class started Steve and the others went snowboarding on there own and James took Nathen into the worm lodge aria.


My eyes are closed Cheesy



The first part of class is simply standing up on your board :)


The man with out the board is out instructor for the day. He was pasiant and I think was shocked how fast the boys took to it. Heck I was shocked too. Devon is a speed demon on his board. Now he just need to learn how to stop. lol


Learning to walk up hill with your board.

All in all a good day.