Letting Go

The holidays are coming up fast. And well I been rather grumpy about the hole thing. I was very upset about being told what I was going to be doing this thanksgiving. I have been cut out of the loop just like when James' parents lived here before. I have always hated them making decisions concerning me and the kids with out me. And now even the little decisions like this sting. But in the end it is making me a very bitter and not nice person.

I have decided to let go of past happenings and just be happy. To except that they most likely will not change and this will happen again. I am going to do my best to resist my instinct to rebel against there decisions good and bad. It just isn't worth the argument and really I am the one who ends up looking like the jerk because they have no idia James doesn't include me and he always gives me the "Oh, I thought I told u." shit.

So, still bitter, but I am making an honest attempt at being in better spirits about this. I am happy MIL s coming over. I am glad she is comfortable in our home and I am even happy to cook for her. I just would have liked to be included in the decision rather then told.