Last Saturday night I got my kids to bed and settled to take a bath and read. At I entered my room I herd my neighbors voice. I didn't think much of this, but did got to close my room window so not to over hear what they were saying or give them a show as I got into the tub (not that they look, but u know) It was then I saw flashing lights on coming from the opposite side of the fence in my yard. It is nothing but a old barn and government land they are going to build a rood on some day back there. I herd women talking and more flashes. Strange. Probably kids. I closed my windows and took my bath. By the time I got out all was quiet in the back and I went to bed with out a secant thought tell hanging out with my neighbor a few nights ago.
It was there voices I herd, but not them in the back ( I didn't think it was, but what is was was a shock) Not just kids. Apparently an enter film crew. two not so dressed ladies, one with blue hair they tell me and a man on a mattress in the Field. Yep Filming a pron movie. How cool I wish I had checked it out would have been more fun than a bath.
Now I have to check out all the new porns coming out with chicks with blue hair. See if I can see my house in the back ground or here my neighbors talking behind the cheesy music they always play. Cool one more reason to watch Porn :) And sense they got a better look at them when they ran into them at the store latter that night I guess I will have to have them over for a movie night just to make certain it is the rite girls.
Friday, August 31, 2007
Saturday, August 25, 2007
I Feel Sick
My mom called. Grandpa is in the hospital. He is OK will go home on Monday. Mild heart attack. I want to go home. I don't want to be in WA any more. I just want to be home. I know he is going to be OK ... it doesn't help. Oct. is to far. My family is to far. I feel so alone here. I hate saying that. I don't want to belittle James and my friends here or his family ether.
I just can't rap myself around things rite now. I feel in a panic all the time. I am on edge and today was the worst yet. I don't know how to get this better. I want to yell and today i did at the kids. I feel honorable about it. They didn't deserve the explosion. Every thing is in a state of transition and I don't know if it is for the better. I am tired of being scared, feeling like I am making a mistake. Today was just bad.
I just can't rap myself around things rite now. I feel in a panic all the time. I am on edge and today was the worst yet. I don't know how to get this better. I want to yell and today i did at the kids. I feel honorable about it. They didn't deserve the explosion. Every thing is in a state of transition and I don't know if it is for the better. I am tired of being scared, feeling like I am making a mistake. Today was just bad.
Monday, August 20, 2007
Tagged
I got tagged by Lory, this time by Louisa over at Osgiliath Is Overrun. Can't say I am thrilled to get a tag, but I like updating my blog and find it difficult to do so in the summer. A meme lets me fill the day when I really have too much going on in real time to wrote a concise blog.
RULES - Post rules before giving the facts - Players start with eight random facts/habits about themselves - People who are tagged need to write their own blog about their eight things and post these rules - At the end of the your blog you need to tag eight people and list their names - Leave them a comment on their blog, telling them they have been tagged and not to forget to read your blog.
1. I guess one of my weird things is not looking in a mirror or out a window at night. I am always scared some one will be standing behind me or staring back threw the darkened glass even on the secant floor.
2. I put in my application at the YMCA today. I am exited and petrified at the same time. I do not adapt well to change or at least not easily. I like having things a certain way and not changing most of the time. This is way out of my comfort zone. I haven't worked out side the home for seven years. I am exited to possibly be getting a job I really want working with kids, but scared to have taken on such a changing. Yikes what was I thinking?
3. Now for the fun stuff. I am so exited to be home schooling this year. I do have concerned about being on my own with the kids all the time. When James is out of town I can get really lonely for him and adult conversation. But I am thrilled to have the opportunity to have them home to learn as they need to and in there own stile. I am so exited to watch them lite up when they get it and let them know it is OK if they need more time. I can't wait to learn with my children as they see things in ways I never would think to see them on my own. I am so grate full to have loving family and friends who have supported me in this choice. Gosh now i feel like crying.
4. My favorite Season is Fall. I love the crisp air and the color of the leaves. The sound they make under my feet as I walk. The smell of apple blossoms in MI. I can't wait to be home and taste the bitter air. I love sipping cider. Its heat in my hands and on my lips as I sip against the cool bite from the wind. Along with a fresh donut of cores.
5. I like to people watch. To see someone when they think they are not being seen. I like to watch friends chat and how they act with each other. The loving touch or the soft giggle at a bad jock. Or arguing and not seeing any one ells around them, but the one they are with. Young love and teens who think the world is all about them and why not. I like to watch people reading and see the joy or boredom in they face as the move on to the next page. I also like to see the photo in the moment. People can be so beautiful when they aren't looking to be seen.
6. (Lory did write this, but it is nice to know I am not the only one who feels this way) Sometimes I really feel like I am dreaming and that if someone wakes me up, I will find that my wonderful life was really just in my imagination.
7. I tend to look for the best in every thing and every one. I have only met one person in my life I couldn't stained. And I really did try to like her. I like people who are true to themselves. And tend to be out going, Maybe because I am not out going. I like being some one others can trust and confide in. I like knowing others I can feel the same about. I trust first, but if u loose that trust I can never give it fully again, but every one gets a secant chance.
8. I feel most comfertable with kids. They are honist and hide nothing. To see the world so new and wonderas as a child dose. Is amazing to me. I feel so privleged to be even a small part of it all.
I tag
Niki, snarkee britchez, http://www.myspace.com/shutterbugmama, http://www.myspace.com/clairest81, http://www.myspace.com/crimson_critter, http://www.myspace.com/tom_the_man_webber , http://www.myspace.com/jam718, http://www.myspace.com/dtato
RULES - Post rules before giving the facts - Players start with eight random facts/habits about themselves - People who are tagged need to write their own blog about their eight things and post these rules - At the end of the your blog you need to tag eight people and list their names - Leave them a comment on their blog, telling them they have been tagged and not to forget to read your blog.
1. I guess one of my weird things is not looking in a mirror or out a window at night. I am always scared some one will be standing behind me or staring back threw the darkened glass even on the secant floor.
2. I put in my application at the YMCA today. I am exited and petrified at the same time. I do not adapt well to change or at least not easily. I like having things a certain way and not changing most of the time. This is way out of my comfort zone. I haven't worked out side the home for seven years. I am exited to possibly be getting a job I really want working with kids, but scared to have taken on such a changing. Yikes what was I thinking?
3. Now for the fun stuff. I am so exited to be home schooling this year. I do have concerned about being on my own with the kids all the time. When James is out of town I can get really lonely for him and adult conversation. But I am thrilled to have the opportunity to have them home to learn as they need to and in there own stile. I am so exited to watch them lite up when they get it and let them know it is OK if they need more time. I can't wait to learn with my children as they see things in ways I never would think to see them on my own. I am so grate full to have loving family and friends who have supported me in this choice. Gosh now i feel like crying.
4. My favorite Season is Fall. I love the crisp air and the color of the leaves. The sound they make under my feet as I walk. The smell of apple blossoms in MI. I can't wait to be home and taste the bitter air. I love sipping cider. Its heat in my hands and on my lips as I sip against the cool bite from the wind. Along with a fresh donut of cores.
5. I like to people watch. To see someone when they think they are not being seen. I like to watch friends chat and how they act with each other. The loving touch or the soft giggle at a bad jock. Or arguing and not seeing any one ells around them, but the one they are with. Young love and teens who think the world is all about them and why not. I like to watch people reading and see the joy or boredom in they face as the move on to the next page. I also like to see the photo in the moment. People can be so beautiful when they aren't looking to be seen.
6. (Lory did write this, but it is nice to know I am not the only one who feels this way) Sometimes I really feel like I am dreaming and that if someone wakes me up, I will find that my wonderful life was really just in my imagination.
7. I tend to look for the best in every thing and every one. I have only met one person in my life I couldn't stained. And I really did try to like her. I like people who are true to themselves. And tend to be out going, Maybe because I am not out going. I like being some one others can trust and confide in. I like knowing others I can feel the same about. I trust first, but if u loose that trust I can never give it fully again, but every one gets a secant chance.
8. I feel most comfertable with kids. They are honist and hide nothing. To see the world so new and wonderas as a child dose. Is amazing to me. I feel so privleged to be even a small part of it all.
I tag
Niki, snarkee britchez, http://www.myspace.com/shutterbugmama, http://www.myspace.com/clairest81, http://www.myspace.com/crimson_critter, http://www.myspace.com/tom_the_man_webber , http://www.myspace.com/jam718, http://www.myspace.com/dtato
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Hanging Around
Well been keeping bizzy with the kids. Thursday we went out to the history museum witch was a lot of fun. Terns out the glass museum is free on the third Thursday of the month too so we got to walk threw there. Really pretty stuff. Tammie and Shelby cam with us and James even maneged to be home. He showed me a much easier way to get there from our house too. Friday my nephews spent the night. The boys had a blast. Locked themselves in there room and plaid all night. Then on Sat we went to a fair there Mom was working to represent the black forest police department. We got to play in the fire trucks and police car. They had blow up jumping things and we tired ourselves out. Today we rested and hung out. Oh and got Trevor new shoos. Swear he goes thew a par a month lately.
Some pic's of our weak
Dress Up Time
And they did it all on there own
Nathen and Daddy Havign fun with Trains
We even beet the Rain that day.
Some pic's of our weak
Shelby, Nathen, Devon adn Trevor
On the prarie
Dress Up Time
And they did it all on there own
Nathen and Daddy Havign fun with Trains
Devon lIked this one on the Glass bridge
Aund Mellissas Police car
Devon. Trevor Nathen and Cortlan
Kennedie and Devon
We even beet the Rain that day.
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Another Weak
I really haven't had much to post, but felt I should chime in. Well we have been bizzy.
Last Thursday we went swimming with friends the boys got a treat when we ran into an old school friend as well at the pool. Both Trevor and Devon had a crush on her at one time.
Friday Niki put up with us for a hole afternoon. We played and she made great gluten free pizza. The boys were so thrilled with piking barriers at the soccer Field. Nathen was covered in barriers from head to toe. She wore us out so much that on
Sat. I almost forgot to take Nathen to gym. we made it 20 min late, but we made it and he always has such fun. Even got a tern on the swing. After we came home and while James sleep off a hard nights work we washed and cleaned our cars.
Sunday I took the day to rest. All this may not sound like a lot to u all, but I am lazy and it is a lot for me.
Monday we went to swim placates and then to Target to pick up a book. I met a nice women there with kids about Trevor and Devon's age. We are doing a book study together. I am a little nerves about the hole realigns thing, but she is nice and it never hurts to become more educated in anything.
Today I sleep in thanks to James, went to ToysRus and finally got Devon's birthday present from with the money my dad sent. I had him talked into getting a really cool man that u should check out the body parts on, but Trevor had more influence and he got magnetic man instead. He is happy so I am too. We came home and played in the sprinkler to beet the heat and played with our toys. A good weak I think. Thanks to good friends as always.
Last Thursday we went swimming with friends the boys got a treat when we ran into an old school friend as well at the pool. Both Trevor and Devon had a crush on her at one time.
Friday Niki put up with us for a hole afternoon. We played and she made great gluten free pizza. The boys were so thrilled with piking barriers at the soccer Field. Nathen was covered in barriers from head to toe. She wore us out so much that on
Sat. I almost forgot to take Nathen to gym. we made it 20 min late, but we made it and he always has such fun. Even got a tern on the swing. After we came home and while James sleep off a hard nights work we washed and cleaned our cars.
Sunday I took the day to rest. All this may not sound like a lot to u all, but I am lazy and it is a lot for me.
Monday we went to swim placates and then to Target to pick up a book. I met a nice women there with kids about Trevor and Devon's age. We are doing a book study together. I am a little nerves about the hole realigns thing, but she is nice and it never hurts to become more educated in anything.
Today I sleep in thanks to James, went to ToysRus and finally got Devon's birthday present from with the money my dad sent. I had him talked into getting a really cool man that u should check out the body parts on, but Trevor had more influence and he got magnetic man instead. He is happy so I am too. We came home and played in the sprinkler to beet the heat and played with our toys. A good weak I think. Thanks to good friends as always.
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
Costco is awesome. I got to return 35 dollars in stuff the boys couldn't eat and left with 27 dollars worth of food they can eat and a little extra in my pocket. How cool.
On another note still fiddling with the WVA paper work and have to tern in the paper work for the YMCA tomorrow. UGH I hate paper work. I still haven't finished my resamie even. I think part of me doesn't want to get that done. I am so scared to work again.
And the house is a mess. Probably will not clean it tell sat.
On another note still fiddling with the WVA paper work and have to tern in the paper work for the YMCA tomorrow. UGH I hate paper work. I still haven't finished my resamie even. I think part of me doesn't want to get that done. I am so scared to work again.
And the house is a mess. Probably will not clean it tell sat.
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