Got to viset Daddy at work today

This is the Train we got to drive

Watching Daddy drive by

Trevor, Shelby and Devon

This is the Train they got drive

Nathe, Devon and Trevor

A quick snack while Daddy works.

Trevor and Devon going for a ride

Shelby is having her tern to drive

I'm a Gryffindor!

"You belong in Gryffindor, where dwell the brave at heart,Their daring, nerve and chivalry set Gryffindors apart."

Some days I just want a sandwich

It is a topical day. Shelby even went home early. Yet I feel stressed and irritated. James would say it is lack of sex. That's his answer to every thing. My be part of it. I hate not being in the mood. I really want to be. Any how that is not the point.

Just can't seam to get it out. I am so angry about not having money, about the food stuff (even though I have had great support in this) some days I just want a sandwich. Trying to make wheat free, milk free bread today. I hope it works. Will keep u posted. So u would think as the bread is baking I would see some light, but no. I am doing all it takes not to be snappy with the kids. Mostly just giving them something to do and leaving the room. Seams to be working so far.

I am applying at the YMCA as well. I hope the extra money will help, but really don't know how to feel about any of it. I haven't worked out side my home in seven years. At least at the Y I can take my kids into class with me or have them in an activity at the same time. Even the day care is free while I work if it comes to that. I hope it doesn't. I don't want to put Nathen threw it. I am hoping it will replace me having to watch Shelby. I love the girl, but really am not getting paid what I need to have it take up 14 hours of most of my days. I do feel she needs the structure we can give, I just don't want to be tied down with her school schedule and her mom is doing nothing to change anything. I just don't know how to Handel any of it and James is stressed out about money and again I don't know what to do.

How did we get to this point. Was the secant car really so far out of our reach we are now swimming in debt. I feel so at felt over all of it. The car, school stuff, food, bills. And I feel helpless. I wish I could just cry and get it out, but no that doesn't happen ether.

Grumble grumble grumble. That's all folks.

Cave in the rain

Wednesday morning, and that is were I wanted to be. Just to crawl into my cave of anti socialness and sleep. Stay in bed, not get out of my PJ's all day and veg. But that was not to be.

Hurriedly got ready for swim class at the YMCA. Last class so couldn't miss that. Then of to Lory's. Who even in an off mood was as sweet as can be and still let us intrude on her home and time. I couldn't be more grateful. The kids had a blast and I learned a bit. Witch when I was leaving I didn't really get, but once it sank in. Wow! Lory knows her stuff and has been such a great comfort threw our transition from the land of non allergy to the land of no wheat and milk. With her help and a few others it has been more an adventure then a nightmare. So we had a great time. and I am glad we got out of the house. Rainy days can tern out good it seams.

Niki~ Lory's kitchen was clean when I left. Just thought u would like to know.

Normal

Saturday Pancakes

So Saturday we had a little bit of normal. Found a pancake mix with no milk or gluten. Our pancake weekend breakfast is back. And none to soon. It has been quite a change for all of us. I don't remember ever going three weeks without cooking something premade and frozen. The boys seam to like the new foods we have been trying, but still haven't found a milk substitute they both like.
Marlen's terned out to be the place to be. I love that store. They even make a soy sausage James likes. Now if I can just convince him to keep eating this healthier way I will be thrilled. Have one and a half months to convince him. At least in the end I will no longer buy premade food with all the preservatives and all. He can't argue with that. And if the boys can have wheat and milk again we can still keep a heather diet and the gluten at a minimum. So in the end it is so much better for us all even if I had to be forced into it I like this new way of things in our home. James even mad salsa with the kids. All fresh veggies and they loved the time with there dad. Vary cool

Sarcasm in Bloom

So yesterday I reluctantly cleaned my bathrooms. Not my favorite job, but well it has to be done. My little Nathen in all his joy watched Mommy scrub away and on occasion made a grab for a spay bottle to help. In witch I reply. "Don't touch it will make u sick" It is after saying this about three times and him pulling his hand away that on the fourth he simply smiled reached out and "Touched" the bottle with one finger. My mothers curs has come true. I have a kid "just like me"

Home for the 4Th

The 4Th of July has been in debate at our house for some time. I wanted James home and he wanted to work. Yes we need the money and things are slow at work so I see his side, but I don't care. I want him home to help me blow things up.

So long story short. I WIN! James took the day off. We went out to lunch with his sister and then off to her house at the lake. Aside from putting up with Her and her DH making little snide remarks at each other and Cort wanting to do anything but play with his little cousins we had a great time. The kids had a wonderful time with bottle rockets. The older once would set them off and the younger once would chase after the sticks. And in true boy fashion Cort did this tell his finger blistered. And once the darkness hit we all got to see a wonderful show put on by the neighbors around the lake. First year we didn't buy any our self. It was loud and bright and a wonderful time.

Today we slept in, I cleaned the bathrooms and finished cleaning out my food supply. Now I just have to shop so the boys have something to eat. Niki and Lory have been such an asset with this hole allergy thing. So now I go threw the debate in my head weather to shop today or put it off tell tomorrow. mmmm tuffy.